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Beating Depression

I think we could all relate to having periods of time where you just feel low. Part of the ups and downs everyone goes through in life. But sometimes a low can feel so low you have no idea how you are going to get up from it - and this is something I have been dealing with lately.

I have been in battle with my Anxiety & Depression for 10 years now. My lows can be pretty horrendous, especially after removing myself from the bulk of the meds back in 2011.

(For clarity, I stopped taking Citalopram in 50mg a day dose)
I still take propranolol when my Anxiety is acting up (This isn't a scheduled drug)
I also have sleeping tablets (For when it's really bad)

I made the decision to come off them in an attempt to deal with things head on, and in the grand scheme of things I have done pretty well, but some days.. things aren't so great. The way I see it, life is filled with ups and downs, so when something shitty happens, I SHOULD be sad. It is a natural reaction. I only panic when I am feeling down for no reason, and right now this is what is happening.

As it isn't rare to me, I know how to combat it - I force myself out of the house, I exercise, I go for a sunbed (Cause lets face it Scotland isn't getting much sunlight) I make plans, I see friends... I know how to deal. But recently, I tried something new. And I was really shocked with the results, so I thought I would share my big secret with you...

I told people.

I went on Snapchat, from my bed, and showed people that my life isn't all ups. I showed people me at my absolute worse, and I told them I was feeling down, and why.

I then went on Instagram, and declared that I wasn't coping, and that today - that day - my depression and anxiety had won. That I was allowing it one day. ONE. To beat me. Then tomorrow I was going to pick myself back up, and get on with things.

To my shock and disbelief, my phone started buzzing. Not with pity, (and not with EE alert either lol) but with people saying how much they can relate to what I was saying. How they felt this way sometimes too.. all of a sudden my shitty mood had turned into a good one - because I wasn't alone. This IS normal, to feel like the weight of the world is just too heavy, and to take time to recover. 

But all it took was just talking about it. That alone lifted a huge weight off my shoulders, to have 50+ people tell you that they understand and know how you feel, to talk about their problems too, all of a sudden what you have been dealing with doesn't sound so hard. So I urge you - if you feel down, tell people! If you share your happy moments share the sad ones too, everyone has them - and I promise you are not alone.

And just when I thought I had the most incredible people around me, my lovely friend Angela (From  BeautyByTheBunny) surprised me not once, but twice. Charlotte Tilbury surprises too (The pictures, incredible woman). Needless to say overwhelmed was the understatement of the century there. I had gone from feeling so isolated, so lonely. To feeling wanted, loved and understood. And for that there is no words to make up how grateful I am, to feel whole again rather than half of who I am. To see someone do something out of the kindness of their heart, to think of me? I cry simply thinking about it. So a million "thank you"s will never be enough. Thank you Angela

So really I just wanted to thank you all for helping me through the bad times, and being with me through all the good ones too. And just know If you are ever feeling low, you are not alone :)

A Full Charlotte Tilbury Post is coming soon
& A Post On The Blogging Community 

Have you ever had this feeling? Do you struggle at all? How do you cope? Let me know in the comments below :)



  1. You're never ever alone lovely. Enjoy your goodies xxx

  2. Letting others know how you're feeling is always good and (most) people are compassionate and will want to help. How lovely of your friend to send you goodies. Hope you're feeling better xx


  3. I'm so glad that there were people around to support you when you were feeling low, social media is often called a curse but at times like this it really comes through.

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  4. I think it's really inspirational that you opened up and told your story to others whilst no doubt in the process helping them a lot too! Keep going you fab gal! X
    Kate// itskaterose.com

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  6. Very sorry to hear this Erin, but how inspirational that you felt able to open up and come out and say how you are feeling. Of course life isn't all sunshine and rainbows and I hope that with more people feeling able to speak up, stigma of mental health will be eradicated and it will be OK for people to say 'today is not my day' without feeling pressured or 'guilty' about it. How lovely that your friends sent you little packages to make you smile - I love doing that knowing the person receiving the parcel will unknowingly be getting a lush bath bomb and a nail varnish that morning just to cheer them up :)


  7. Oh sweetie, you're never alone. You are amazing person and we will always stand by you! I hope you feeling better.

    Michelle Morchella

  8. Life always has its ups and downs, it gets harder to cope once in a while. When you feel that way, it is important to talk with others, rather than trying to deal with it by yourself. Talking is the best cure, even if you can't solve all your problems, it will cheer you up. I hope you are feeling better now!

    Ela BellaWorld

  9. Love these colors!





  10. I'm so sad to hear that. I really hope that you are going to feel better and happier in the future. Ups and downs are definitely a part of the life and getting up after a bad time is what is most important. If you ever need somebody to talk to I'm here. xo

    Antonia || Sweet Passions

  11. these palettes look like chocolate bars! Even looking at them makes me happier <3

  12. I think it's so brave to talk about this and so happy to hear it's helped you. x

  13. Hugs, I believe many can relate to your story and thank you for speaking up and bringing more awareness to this matter. You have an amazing friend there, treasure her, real friends are hard to come by these days.

  14. I love that you have wrote this post. Mental health issues are something that we should feel that we can talk about them, like they say, a problem shared is a problem halfed. Even though when you are at your lows it won't make a difference, but just try to remember that you have many people here that care about you!

    Danielle xx

  15. I love this post, it's so brave and beautifully written. Always here whenever :) xxx
    Hels x

  16. Thank you for posting this - it's so important. I came off my meds about 3 years ago now and it's done me a world of good...but so has talking to people. I'm glad you feel more on track now.


  17. Thankyou for talking about this, it really helps xx

  18. I'm sad you feel down enough to share but I'm so happy you have people around you to share your feelings!

    Inside and Outside Blog

  19. Your brave for bringing your battles to your blog! So inspiring and you are never alone :) xx


  20. You're definitely not alone. I too have struggled with anxiety and depression for years and have weeks at a time where I can barely leave my bed let alone my house. I honestly just bottle it up and never say any thing so I shall give talking about it a go! You're lucky to have such great friends and a support system and that Charlotte Tilbury is a lovely surprise!
    Big hugs ❤️
    PaleGirlRambling xo


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